I really should be doing homework right now, but I've decided to do a blog update instead. I want to update everyone on NCU and Minneapolis.
Wow, where to begin? I'll begin with my roomie, Jackie. I just love Jackie. We get along and have learned to communicate, but we are still learning each other. We laugh, cook, and co-exist together. In my opinion, we work. =) The only thing is, she doesn't like chocolate. It is a sad thing I know. I make brownies, and she doesn't like them. I buy delicious raspberry chocolate coffee, and she doesn't like it. =( Its okay though, I still love her!
Friends. I have made a few friends so far. There are these two hilarious girls that live across the hall. Jess & Danielle. They are two of the craziest people ever, but I am looking forward to getting to know them more. We have fun together and laugh, which is great, but as you all know me I can't stay on the surface too long because I get bored. There so much more under the surface and it helps you understand the surface. Any who! =)
Work, aka Target is interesting. It is a very simple job, clock in clock out sort of thing. I don't love it, I don't hate it. It is bearable. I am meeting alot of interesting people and am loving them already. Before beginning this job I prayed that God would give me divine opportunites with the people I would be working with. I am still learning the job and the people, but really I am looking for opportunities to love me some people. =) A paycheck doesn't hurt either.
Classes. Classes are stressful. I love learning, but I don't like all the reading. It is really wearing on me. I hate always having to be doing something. As I said before, right now I should be working on my homework, but I am revolting against it. Well, at least for the next 10 minutes. Then the revolt will be over and I will give in and do the wretched homework. A cool thing about my classes are that somehow in the unique way God schemes everything, my classes all tie together. They are in small ways, but they do. Now this is a good thing, but also a bad thing. A good thing because it helps me to focus and understand if everything is working together, the bad thing is I can't keep one straight from the other. I wish my life could go back to being somewhat easy dealing with children and helping them with their problems. I miss that life. I miss the kids and students. I miss my family. I miss my friends.
Right now I am really learning to trust in the Lord, once again. I really need to trust Him through all of this. I could have gone anywhere to finish my degree, but God wanted me to go back to NCU. Today during chapel, once again, I had to give over all my stress from classes and time management to the Lord. I am constantly surrendering myself to God. During worship today I was able to remove all my frustration, exhaustion, loneliness, and focus on God. The song "Hosanna" was played and the bridge caught me (as it always does).
Heal my heart and make it clean.
Open up my eyes to the things unseen.
Show me how to love like you have loved me.
Break my heart for what breaks yours.
Everything I am for kingdom's cause.
As I walk from earth into Eternity.
I was reminded to take my eyes off myself and my frustrations, my worries, my exhuastion and turn them to God. I know God's ways are bigger than I could ever know. I am being reminded of that daily. Another song that was played was Misty Edwards "Favorite One"
Jesus, here I am your favorite one.
What are thinking what are feeling?
I have to know.
For I am after your heart
I'm after your heart
I'm after You.
Usually while worshipping during this song I am searching for God's guidance on my future. This time all I wanted was to know was God. I felt God's presence come over me and I knew He was near. My only desire is to know God. I want to walk in His perfect will, but more importantly I want to KNOW God.
I see how God is working in my life. See, He has stripped me of everything I have known for the past three years, everything I love, so I will be in a vulnerable place. And trust me, I am very vulnerable to God right now. So I guess I am asking, if anyone even reads this to please be praying. Pray for divine appointments every where I go, but specifically at work. Please pray that this chapter in my life will be blessed by God and I will trust Him more and more. Please pray that I will manage my time better. I will be praying for you! Praying blessings and joy!
I must be off because I've got that homework to do. =)
